Sunday, February 20, 2005

HELLO! So we're back in Jocotenango now! After Monday's 8 hour travel escapade, we decided to leave as early as we could handle today from the orphanage. We were planning on just stepping out of the house at 6:30 am and walking around with our hiking backpacks plus my guitar until we found a taxi. THANKFULLY Herlyn, the mom of the orphanage, got up with us and advised we call a taxi because they never circle that area of Xela. But today we made excellent time and I was stepping into my house in Joco at 11:15. But that's boring news, i'll tell you about the rest of the week...
pretty much it was amazing! I felt like I spent the whole time in the presence of God. They were long days, but not that physically draining, and it was just such a sweet experience. Herlyn has a younger brother that took us to see a Meet the Fockers (they're all in English with Spanish subtitles) and then to this really cool touristy antiques cafe after for cake. It was great to have a night out :) Oh, except the town is pretty sketchy... Herman carried his TAZER with him while we walked from the car to the theatre entrance! thankfully he didn't have to use it. oh, it's crazy, every year the college students in guatemala have a few weeks where they dress in black or purple robes with pointed hats and tiny holes for eyes (yes, you read right... pretty much hundreds of KKK-looking people walking around a foreign country. unnerving is an understatement) and go around asking for money. they use the money to throw a year-end party, but they can get a little violent. like they get on the buses and usually they are harmless, but you give them a Q (like 16 cents) if you have it! They go around to businesses too, and if the owners don't pay up they come back in the nights and do major vandalizing. sketchy, yes. so we saw them EVERYWHERE in Xela and mostly at nights. crazy sauce!
we did lots of cleaning and cooking and painting for the orphanage and just hung out and danced with the kids. it was super super super awesome and fun. last night they made us all goodbye cards and it was ADORABLE! i miss them already... There was a big football (soccer) game between Guatemala and Belize last night, so we thought "hey, fiesta!!" and brought the TV into the dining room and had hot dogs, pop, chips, candy, cookies, balloons, and face paints for them. it was a HUGE hit and just so much fun. and Guate won, 2-0, so that was even more awesome :) and then we had a dance party. v. cool :) yeah... so that's pretty much been the week! awesome, amazing, and fun. oh, except today on the chicken bus from Chimaltenango to Joco, all of Joanne's money and debit card was taken from her money belt, which was well hidden under her pants, a shirt, and a hoodie. Poor girl! She had lots in there too. it'll be a good wake-up call for all of us, i guess.

so tomorrow is a well needed day off to do laundry, internet, and we have to take these spiritual gifts/personality tests for the knowing yourself/spiritual retreat week we're doing starting Tuesday. I'm excited for that. Blayne Greiner, a first semester speaker, is coming down for that! hurrah! it'll be a good week to process my time here, figure out some more of who i am and where i'm going. it should be awesome! and we'll be on a coffee plantation. oooo! so far all the coffee i've had here has been instant, which is raunchy. ok, ok, so i don't actually drink coffee, so i can't tell if the stuff here is good or not, but apparently the real, homegrown stuff tastes different than at home. but yeah, that's about all... gotta run! Meeting Katie and Jo and Niki at the fountain. Miss you all! happy days!
PS. Mom, Dad, Joel, Paul, Nicole: PLEASE email me! i haven't heard from any of you in ages and i miss you. Paul: Go to Esperanza.

PPS. All you others, PLEASE email me! i will reply! and i love feeling connected to home and knowing how you're all doing. be blessed!
Psalm 58

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Hey-lo all you whiteys out there! On Friday we packed up, hopped our bus, and took off to Monterrico for 3 days! It was AMAZING! We drove to this lagoon and then had to take this sketchy looking boat through most likely pirrahna and lagoon shark-infested waters to reach the place where we were staying. It was SMOKING hot and awesome. We had to walk for about 20 mins to reach our hotel, but it was sooooo worth it.
ok, get this: EVERY room (2 person per room) has a hammock hanging outside of it and each bed has a mosquito net that hangs over you at night. There was a small pool that was always the most perfect temperature, and then (drumroll please) THE OCEAN! Smokes, it was so great! I couldn,t believe that it was the Pacific Ocean! SUPER warm and HUGE waves and BLACK, smooth sand. I was in heaven. AND we had boogie boards, so we body surfed and boarded alllll day. and I brought my thermarest, let it self-inflate, and laid on it with my towel for the rest of the hours of the day. It was super salty and sandy though, so when i was feeling particularly sticky, i showered off and jumped in the pool, where i stayed for HOURS, reading "The Princess Bride" (the book is super hilarious!) which Dee leant me. For dinner we walked down the beach until we reached Johnny,s, which had good food, but BAD sand fleas. The first night i was bit SO bad, but only for like 30 mins, and then they were gone! it was nuts! the next night we decided to sit up on the veranda at Johnny,s to avoid the buggies.
Nathan Reiger, a speaker we had from first semester, came to Monterrico with us and we had a few sessions with him. It was fantastic! He spoke on community and the natural stages that groups go through. i think it really helped our group to recognize some of the vibes that have been going on within us and how to healthily reach true community. Me and Nathan talked for a while too after, and he challenged me to face some of the demons in my life. I was super glad that we talked. I know I need to take some time to sit and process it all though... things move pretty fast-paced around here. Today marks our 5 weeks in Guatemala! It,s insane, really...
So we came back from Monterrico, all very very red. Nicole, remember how we just sat in self-pity on the cruise because we were so fried and how bad it hurt to move? massive deja vu. except it only hurt for 2 days and i haven,t peeled or anything. hopefully i,ll just brown nicely :) i totally forgot to bring sunscreen to the beach, but even those who slathered every 20 mins look like tomatoes. its awesome :)
so we came back from Monterrico, showered, packed for our independent service week, and met in the park for pizza, as we do every sunday night. Me, Ben, Kara, and Joanne are all working at this amazing orphanage in Xela ("Shay-lah") called La Casa de Fe y Amor (The house of faith and love). There are 7 children: Roxana, Pedro, Jose, Elias, Arresallie, Juan Carlos, and Edgar. The owners of the place are a young married couple with 14 month old Andreas. Our instructions on how to actually get to Xela were ridiculously ambiguous and insane, so i woke up on monday morn and prayed for an adventure. whoops! haha! It was awesome, seriously. We took a bus from Joco to Antigua. Then we bussed from Antigua to Chimaltenango, where I saw a huge box of teensy chicks and proceeded to buy one for 6 Q (a buck Canadian). Jo (our fearless leader for the week) forbade me from buying one, so i told Ben to get one. and he did. and so did Xena (her group travelled with us for part of the way). and we loved the chickens SO much. they were adorable! except they didn,t have fluff on the backs of their necks. must be some Guatemalan strand or something. anyway, from Chimalte, we caught a coach bus (v. nice) to Xela, where we played with our chicks the whole time. But when we got to Xela, Ben all of the sudden decided he didn,t want Franklin! (that,s what i called him). I was devastated, and Xena refused to take him. This guy that worked at a furniture store came by and said he was cute, so Ben gave him away. I hope he doesn,t become a meal. anyway, so in Xela we took a taxi to the address we were given, which, as it so happens, DOESN,T exist! we spent over an hour in the taxi, wandering around the same area. we tried calling our leaders, and the leaders of our leaders, and our contact people, and this other lady, but none of the phones we tried worked, and when they did, none of those people,s cell phones were on. so he dropped us off at McDonalds where we had burgers and McFlurries (they have butterfinger mcflurries down here! score!). We finally got a hold of the lady that said she might pick us up, and an hour later, she did that. and another hour later the owners of the orphanange arrived and we arrived at the place. it was a long day, but fun!
It,s SUPER chilly in Xela, which took us all by surprise. But we,re surviving fine. We,ve mostly just been cooking meals for 14 people and folding clothes. Tomorrow we,ll do a bunch of painting for them. The kids come home from school around 1:00 pm and have a siesta (nap) for a few hours after lunch, so we hit the town for internet, phone, and chillaxing. We,re here until Sunday. Then on Monday we head to a coffee plantation for a spiritual retreat week with another one of our first semester speakers. it should be awesome! anyway, i must run. miss you all! see you later!

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Happy Superbowl Sunday everyone! There's some excitement down here about watching American Football, and the restaurants and sports bars will certainly be busy here in Antigua all afternoon! Lots has happened since I last blogged, so I'll try to chronologicize it by day for you :)
Jan. 30th: I had just finished blogging and headed back to Parque Central to meet up with some friends. In the park there are always little boys running around trying to shine your shoes, or girls selling necklaces, belts, etc. I had noticed one small girl selling belts during the day and she happened to be sitting next to my friend, Jo, on the bench when i returned. We had a little conversation and I found her just super adorable. Her name was Gloria and she asked me how old I was and told her I was turning 19 tomorrow. Caramba! It so happened that it was Gloria's 11th on the 31st also! So we went out and got a huge piece of cake to share. and then I helped her sell 7 belts to my Outtatown friends. It was awesome :)
Jan. 31st: First day of school! They sang happy birthday to me and we had a pinata. It's crazy, down here they tie the pinata to wires and pull it everywhere, so it's super hard to hit. Much funner though :)
Our small group went out and got a cake and shared it together. It was fitting, as 6 of the 8 of us have either our actually birthdays or our half birthdays within a week and a half of each other. More feliz cumpleanos!
I had been feeling sick all day, so I went to bed at 6:30. My parents called from BC to wish me a happy birthday at 9:30, so that was a pretty groggy phone call, but i loved it.

Feb. 1st: This was our first actually day of actual classes. I'm in a group with Ben, Xena, and Geoff. We've done tons of verbs and grammar and vocab already. Now to actually put it to practise...
Every Tuesday we are split into 4 groups and do service projects around the area. My group is working on a communal farm that grows Nispero fruit and makes jams, juices, liquers, etc. Tues afternoon there were 6 of us that scrubbed the moss of these trees in San Juan. It was quite thereapuetic :)

Feb 2nd: Today was Geoff's birthday, so after school we all headed to Antigua and had a bash at the MonoLoco (The Funky Monkey). There isn't a movie theatre here in Anitgua, but they have these cafes where you can go in and order a meal or even just a drink and they show movies in English at different times throughout the day. A few of us were going to watch one at 8 that night, but the one that was running previously went long and didn't end until 8:45 and I told my fam I'd be back by 10, sooooo... that didn't work out. But it's a neat idea, and we'll try again soon.

Feb. 3rd: Checked my email today and THANK YOU everyone SO MUCH for all the birthday cards and emails! I love you all sooo much. And thanks guys for commenting on my blogs. I read them all and cherish them. Today I led worship for the group with my guitar. Geoff was on the jumbay (funky drum) and Karis and Carmen sang also. It was sweet. I went to Pan's house after. She had to do her book report, so I sat on her bed and read for a while. Then we did some listening prayer together, which was awesome!

Feb 4th: Me, Dee, and Jeffrey walked from the pink church in Jocotenango to Antigua (30 mins) to meet up with 8 others to do our culture day. One day a week we have a culture day where we'll go on a tour, or see some sights, etc. Today we walked to Las Ruinas Capichinas, which is a 17th century convent, rebuilt in the 18th century. It was PRETTY, and really neat. There's this circular courtyard that connects 18 of the nuns meager bedrooms. We all stood in an arched doorway and then one person goes and stands right in the middle and speaks. To us standing in the arches, it just sounded like someone talking normally, but to the speaker his or her voice echoed SO much! It was amazing! So we all gave it a turn. It sounded like i was standing inside a tin can. Then we went downstairs to another circular room and stood at different places along the walls and sang. Again, amazing how gorgeous the sound was, and full! A "cappichino" is actually named after this convent and the ladies in it because of how they wore dark on the bottom and white on the top. There was something to do with the colour red too, but I forget. Neat coffee fact for all your Starbuck's junkies our there. Oh, I also found out that a thousand pound bag of coffee is sold for $18 Canadian dollars. Wow. We need to get cracking on buying fair trade stuff...
We left there and went to Santiago Cemara, a small village about 30 mins from Antigua. There we met with 15 ladies who started these tours to raise money to send all the kids in Santiago to school. We learned about the history of the village and then went inside a large house to watch how they make clothes (some shirts take a year and a half of working everyday for 10 hours and sell for only $100! Whoa!) and make coffee! The coffee trees are neat. They pick the fruit and let it dry in the sun for a month, they crush the shells to get the beans and crush the beans to get the grounds. I don't think the Guatemalan coffee tastes like coffee at home. I'll try to bring some back for you guys to try. We also made our own tortillas, which we ate with the chicken, rice, and sauce they gave us for dinner. mmm, good!
Later that night a handful of us went out for brownies and ice cream at the Cafe 2000 (one of the places where they show movies), but there was no movie on.

5th: Today we had the morning off, so i went to Katie Butz's house. Tabitha and Joel were already there and Joel accidentally let her dog out when I arrived. So we spent the first 10 minutes chasing this big golden retriever around Joco! Hahaha! At 1:00 we all piled onto a bus and headed to the base of Volcan Pacaya! We started our hike at 3:30. It was STEEP! The first hour was in bush, but the last hour was straight up loose volcanic rock. It was 2 steps up, sliiiiiide back, 2 steps up, sliiiiide back. It took a long time and the wind was INTENSE. I loved it! At the top we were able to look down into one of the craters and watch lava spit out from two different places! So amazing! Coming back down, you lean back and just run-jump.It took only 5 minutes to bottom the first part. Then me, Pan, Katie, Tabitha, and Jo ran ahead and ran the last hour down the mountain. The sun set (again, more amazing gorgeousness), and the lights from the city were beautiful and we saw fairies! Well, I guess they were fireflies, but nearly as cool as fairies. :) By this time it was pitch black and they looked like mini lights everywhere. Very exotic and romantic. We came home around 9:30 and i headed to bed pretty quickly after that.

So that's been my week! Full and fun! I'm thankful that I'm not feeling as flu-ish as I was earlier on this week. Please pray that I kick this cold for good. And also that I'd be able to really be praying lots while I'm here, and to continually step out to bless and serve these people, and not solely during our independent services, etc. It's been hard connecting with my family because they are never home, and are super busy, so also that I'd be able to be a servant to them also. How can I pray for you guys? I do lots. Pray, that is. I do pray for you guys lots. I miss you tons and hope you all are at peace. Oh, next weekend we are headed to Montoricco to sit on the beach all weekend. We also have one of our first semester speakers, Nathan Reiger, and his wife, who will be there with us and we have some classes with him next weekend. He spoke on idols and freedom in September, so I'll bet his follow-up classes will be awesome. Next week (14--18th) We have our independent service projects. I'm not sure yet what the options are, but I'd like to work with kids, either at an orphanage, school, hospital... so I'll let you know! Be blessed,
Janelle


Sunday, January 30, 2005

This past week my small group (Team H2O) pretty much finished up the house we were building for Raphael and his son. Making cement is such an art! For one room it takes 6 wheelbarrow-fulls of sand, 4 wheelbarrows of gravel, 2 bags of "cemento" and auga (water). It's actually a pretty hefty job! The albanils (masons) mixed it once we brought them all the ingredients, and then we just carried buckets of this stuff into the house and the other albanil was smoothing it onto the ground to make the floor. Then they put a rust coloured finish on. it looked awesome!
Guatemalan time is hilarious. I still can't get over how totally ok it is to show up to something an hour and a half late and no one even bats an eye. Punctuality might take some getting used to once i return to BC though... haha!

On Friday night we had a little fiesta with the Habitat for Humanity people and some of the families who we were building for came. it was cool :) Neither our small group's fam nor our albanils could come, which is too bad, but it was good none the less. we had steak, which was awesome. Oh, and then an announcement was made that there'd be a Site 1 meeting on the roof after dinner. So we all got there and we started singing a worship song, which conveniently broke into "Happy Birthday" for me and Peter! It was SUCH a surprise. We got cake a firecrackers too. I loved it. :)

So after breakfast yesterday, we loaded our bags onto our insane buses to drive to Antigua. Honestly, there have been nights where I've gone to bed and just marvelled at the fact that I haven't seen a car accident or any injured pedestrians on the side of the road. there are NO road signs or traffic rules or anything! it's fun, but i've been brushed by trucks that have whizzed by on more than one occassion. it's actually quite the fun adventure to play "dodge the traffic" when you're walking on the sidewalk the whole time! hahaha! but back to yesterday... the buses came an hour late and we were off! Away from the ...erm... less than 5-star hotel experience we had just lived in. funny fact: they made us clean up all our things on friday so that they could exterminate the dorms before the students arrived. we came back from habitat, the place looked and smelled exactly the same. and there were still roaches and spiders. what can ya do, eh?

So after 3 hours we pulled in Antigua and I. AM. IN. LOVE. no joke, it is GORGEOUS here! Completely surrounded by volcanoes and trees, it's Parque Central lies admist the 500-year-old ancient ruins of the original Spanish architecture. Antigua is a 15 minute bus ride or 20 minute walk (shows the efficiency of the roads! haha!) from Jocotenango, which is the city we all live in and will be learning Spanish in. Joco is really pretty too. Everywhere there and here in Antigua has cobblestone streets, with fruit venders, and these teensy horses pulling massive carts. The locals dress in traditional, colourful garb, and are taking their crafts/produce to the market, or sit on the corners conversing. It's super cool. Antigua is much more touristy than any other city in Guatemala, so there's lots of europeans and most of the restaurants and cafes have english on their menus as well as spanish.

speaking of spanish... lol, no pun intended there, but i honestly CANNOT. i'm trying so hard and i find it hilarious! my family must think i'm a nutcase. I met them yesterday! My mom's name is Esperanza (super super cool name :)), my dad's name is Jaime (pronounced "High-me"), I have a 25 yr old bro named Alejandro and a 20 yr old sister Paula. Paula and "Alex" are learning English on the weekends in Guatemala City, so they spoke to me at dinner last night, but for the few hours before that I did my best to listen, learn, understand, and communicate with Jaime and Esperanza. I showed them my pictures (I think they think that the fact that Durango has 2 different coloured eyes means he's lucky, or worth more, or something). They loved the mountains and Christmas trees too. Dinners are late here... I ate at about 8:30, unpacked the rest of my stuff, read a bit, and went to bed around 10:30. Got up before 8:00 and asked if i could have a shower. So...i'm in the shower this morning and Esperanza yells in at me and i had to turn the shower off and she had to repeat herself like 13 times and still to this moment i'm not totally sure what i answered "Si!" to. The language thing is pretty complicated and funny. Ooooh, but they have a washing machine upstairs, so I don't have to lug my laundry around the city to a "lavanderia" to get it washed! yes! I'll pick up some of my own laundry soap though. What else? We start Spanish classes tomorrow! That's exciting. We get tested in the morning to see what level group we should be in. We are put in groups of 3 or 4 and then a teacher. Also we have service projects that we'll be doing during the afternoons this week (and the 6 to come also), so I'm not sure what I'll be doing for those, but i'm stoked for that also! Oh, I was told that we can't receive mail, so i have no post addy to give you guys. sorry about that! i do have a phone number... it's 7831-0229, but i'm not sure the country and area code for that. and the time difference is 2 hours ahead of BC. but no one is obligated to call of course :)
Next weekend, we're climbing a live volcano! It's called Pacaya. And the following weekend we're going to Monoricco, which is one of the world's top ten beaches ever. It's amazing!
Shoot, i got to go. I miss you guys incredibly. Please pray that I'd get over my cold and fall more in love with everything here. I do love it, but i don't LOVE love it. And I miss home. be so blessed.
Janelle


Tuesday, January 25, 2005

ok, so my blog seems to be working again! hurrah! i´m here at an internet cafe in Mazatenango, which is the place we´re staying while we work with Habitat. today was slightly dull on the jobsite but exotic at the same time! we´re putting the plumbing in (yay, i´m a plumber just like my dad now!), and the way they do it is to give me and Peter a hammer and pick and ask us to chisel a 4 inch hole in the cement blocks in different sections of the walls. so we seriously did that all day long. ALL DAY LONG. that´s all the rest of my small group did too! we just switched on and off. my forearms are bulging beasts now, i swear.
Poor Geoff was sick and stayed at the dorms yesterday instead of coming to work. he was back today, but devoid of strength. Tabitha and Julia spent most of the morning exhausted and kept nodding off, so they headed back to the college at lunch to sleep and get better. Julia´s been hit hard with the bug. I´ve still got a cold, but it´s not too bad.
oh! so today we´re chiseling away at the wall when this old man comes hobbling by with his cart shouting ¨cocos! cocos!¨ so we went out and bought 2 whole coconuts, drank the milk, smashed them on the wall, and ate the innards. walking back to the bus i was all like ¨wow, that was awesome! i´m in an exotic country, building an exotic house, trying to speak an exotic language, and eating some exotic fruit. this is awesome!¨ and Pan goes, ¨Yeah, and now we´re all gonna be exotically sick from it.¨ it was hilarious.
we had these amazing chicken salad sandwiches for lunch (i think they are trying to give our stomachs a rest from the guatemalan beans, plantanes, and corn tortillas) and my friend, Pan, was like ¨Ew, i hate chicken gristle¨and i was like ¨Yeah, me too¨ and NONE of the others in our small group had even HEARD of the word gristle before. guess what they call it in Manitoba?? GURNURPLE. gurnurple. sick animal! well, i guess we´ve finally found a word that rhymes with purple. haha!
anyway, not much else to say. on Saturday i meet my family who i´ll be living with for pretty much the rest of the time we´re here. ahh! i hope they´re nice. with many little children. love you all! and i´m pray for you guys too. later!
Janelle (they call me ¨Hun-ay-uh¨ here. i love it.)

Sunday, January 23, 2005

ok, so here´s the diddly i tried to post a few days ago that didn´t work. it might sound sort of repetetive :)
! things are great here... it was KILLER hot when we arrived, but then bused a couple hours into the mountains where it was FREEZING (cloudy and cold everyday) at a place called Camp Adulam. It was super pretty there. We,re together with site 2 (the other guatemalan groups), and they,re really cool. hmm, this email might be all over the map, so sorry about that! i,ll try to start again.

we got to CMU at 2pm and there was over a foot of snow. i loved it! but then the director came in and told us that the guatemalan airport was on strike and no one was allowed in or out of the country! but we hopped on the bus and did the 8 hour trek down to Minneapolis anyway. we watched Napoleon Dynamite (a classic with this group) and Touching the Void on the way down. i maybe got 30 mins of sleep on the bus. then i slept almost an hour at the airport. we were then informed that the airport in Guate had hired some Mexicans and was up and running. BUT our plane to Atlanta was delayed, so we almost missed our connecting flight! they held it for us though because there are 57 of us. 57 with zero sleep in the past 36 hours. ouch.

so back to camp adulam... we spent thursday to sunday at adulam, playing soccer and tag with the kids, and trying to stay warm (seriously, it was insane!) i helped lead worship on friday and we had a dude come in to teach us some cultural facts and safety.

sunday our us driver (dario) drove us to Mazatenango where we,re staying while working with Habitat for Humanity. we´re actually staying in college dorms while the kids are out for the winter! college dorms that completely shattered my dreams of international school (except i might still want to go to England and live in a castle school... but that´s another story). but seriously, we live with mosquitos, cockroches, bed bugs, scorpions, lizzards, and toads. it,s an adventure!

it´s hilarious, i literally walk down the street and all the Guatemalans just stare at me, or laugh and say Alta! (means tall). everyone is SOOO tiny! it´s hilarious :)

my small group is building a house for this man named Raphael and his 11 year old son. Raffy stops by the site daily to chat with us (i,m learning a bit of spanish... mostly just vocab to do with construction! haha!) and he´s brought us chocobananos (halved frozen bananas covered in chocolate!), Pepsi, papaya, and real cocoa plants/fruit and chocolate. h,s super nice! and our albanil (mason) is awesome too. ew, speaking of chocolate, even though it originated down here, it´s NOT GOOD at ALL. it´s so wierd! maybe i´ll bring some back to show you all :)

tomorrow we´re heading to a hotel and market in Panajachel! excited! apparently it,s awesome for shopping. the nights have been super hot here in Maza, so i´ve had a couple nights were i jump into my bathing suit, jump into the shower (it´s always nice and cold) and gone to bed wet. it works! anyway, things are really good.. a lot of people have gotten sick (stomach, bowels, etc), but i,ve been good! except i caught a cold from Xena. but otherwise things rock. i wish i had more time to tell you all the insanely crazy cool things i´ve been seeing. miss you all! how can i pray? be so blessed!
Janelle
Surely the Sovereign Lord does nothing without revealing His plan to His servants the prophets. Amos 3:7

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Hey! ok, so i tried to blog yesterday and it wasn´t working. so i´ll try again! i only have like 5 minutes on here though (we get 15 mins free internet at the hotel here in Panajachel, but i used 10 of those on msn :)). We arrived in Panajachel at noon today and settled our site into the Grand Hotel. It´s a very touristy place, and since then all i´ve done is grab lunch and wander around, trying to put on my best bargaining face. it´s crazy, the people will follow you RIGHT into a restaurant while you are eating lunch and they will NOT leave! it´s crazy! I bought a few things, and will probably grab a couple more tomorrow. they have all the same stuff in Antigua (starting Saturday we´ll be in Jocotenango which is like 20 mins from Antigua) but this is the cheapest place to shop apparently. I sent out a mass email yesterday to a bunch of people, but it only sent it to like 30 addresses, so i´m sure most of you didn´t receive it. pretty much things are going alright. there´s been tons of spiritual attack going on with our group. SO many are ridiculously sick or just feeling homesick and not tops. i´m sure that´s normal for a new place and culture though, but i can tell it´s really wearing on the group.
Habitat for Humanity is awesome! the people are pretty slack down here. breakkie is at 7 am, and so on monday we all are up and at the doors for our meal at 6:57. and we were fed around 7:40. so now i don´t even set my alarm until 2 mins to 7. and on the job site there are times when our albanils (masons) have nothing for us to do, so we just sort of sit there, but then other times when we´re digging trenches for pipes in the blazing sun. it´s HOT in Mazatenango (the place where we´re living and building). it was WAY cooler, almost freezing, at Camp Adulam where we were for teh first couple days. here in Pana it´s in the middle of them two. i like.
we´re building our house for a single father and his 11 year old son. the house walls were already up when we started, so we might finish mid week next week and move on to help another small group.
my spanish is coming along a little bit. i love trying to learn it! some of us went to see a movie last night. i saw National Treasure. it was in English with SPanish subtitles.i thought it´d be the other way around... wierd!รง
hmm.. what else? we leave Pana tomorrow after dinner and head back to the college dorms where we´re staying. along with the cochroches, lizards, toads, spiders, bed bugs, mosquitos, and scorpions. all my dreams of going to university in a foreign land have flown out the window. except maybe for england. school in a castle! anyways, it´s time for me to go. i love you all and miss you tons! i´ll try to get you an addy for where i´ll be living (starting saturday) asap. you guys rock so much. how can i pray? email me or reply to my bloggidy-blog-blog. hasta luega.
Janelle

Saturday, January 08, 2005

"That which was from the beginning, which I have heard, which I have seen with my eyes, which I have looked at and my hands have touched--this I proclaim concerning the Word of life. The life appeared; I have seen it! And testify to it! And I proclaim to you the eternal life, which was with the Father and has appeared to us. I proclaim it to you what I have seen and heard, so that you also may have fellowship with me. And our fellowship is with the Father and with His Son, Jesus Christ."
1 John 1:1-3

Therefore...

"Friends! Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things."
Philippians 4:8

And so...

"I take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ."
2 Corinthians 10:5
What have I to say or write? It's been nearly 6 weeks since I've blogged! IS it lack of inspiration? Or IS it really half-hearted motivation? Maybe it's just being bloody distracted. My mind has been sooo everywhere and not God-focussed. Hollow, haggard eyes. Convenient amnesia. Persistently a stubborn apathetic.
WELL NOT ANY FREAKING MORE.
That's it! I've had it. I'm done with sitting on my rat's tail doing diddly. Fill me, Jesus! I'm so empty and shallow and eerie... I miss feeling full of the Spirit. Instead what I have feasted on? Movies, entertainment, gossip, fabricated life. That's what it is! Things seem so surreal and awkward because they're not real! They're not the fulfilling of my deepest, most desperate cries. Only Jesus does... He's like protein! a good, essential filler. mmmm, protein. But yeah, and i've been complaining lots recently too. I'm gonna stop groaning and just bloody LIVE! Ready? Set! Three, two, one... GO!
.......and she's off.......

Saturday, December 04, 2004

So classes are done for the winter... it's wierd. Our speaker this week, Hugo Reimer (yep, another Menno! lol!), was really good. he didn't say anything revolutionary, but he just reiterated old truths, and i think i super needed to hear them. It was really challenging and encouraging!

ok, so guess what? it started snowing in the middle of the night last night (yes, i know this because i packed up my sleeping bag for Canmore and was sleeping between 2 super thin sheet-blankets, like the ones they give you in travel trailers and on airplanes and i woke up FREEZING because our window was opened. and so i found more blankets and went to bed. :)) and the snow hasn't stopped falling since! it's GORGEOUS! just sorta flurries and stuff, but we've got a good 2-3 inches. and we went on a hay wagon ride today, pulled by 2 black Percherons, Dan and Doyle. It was awesome... we through each other off the wagons and dragged the camp cats along with us. super fun!

they have this video projector that we've been using for the past couple nights and the screen is HUGE! like, the wall is, i mean. we project the video up onto the wall and it's (no joke) the same size as a theatre screen! so we prop ourselves against these slanted upside-down pews in our sleeping bags and watch. tonight they are watching Return of the King, but i opted out cuz it won't be done until 2:30 am and we have to be up by 7:30 and i've been tired in the past couple days. but just the whole concept is awesome!

the staff here at Camp Evergreen through us a HUGE Christmas banquet for tonight! it was a delicious three-course meal with candles and decorations and amazingness. we were all dressed up too, so that was cool.

tomorrow morn we're leaving for Canmore, snowboarding on Monday, and hanging out in Banff and/or Canmore tomorrow and Tuesday. Then i fly home! ican't wait to see all you. It's sad to leave these guys though, for sure.

I know I never write about what i've been learning and that i make Outtatown out to be this slacker vacation, but really i HAVE learned tons and the school is worth its weight in gold, i swear. I was looking back through my journal and assignment book tonight and was like, "whoa... i should blog some of this stuff!" cuz it's totally where i'm at. but i'm not gonna do that now... talk to me about it when i get home :) love to you all! pray for snow in the lower mainland!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Hey! Wow, this week has been so super long so far! There's just been tons of stuff that we've tried to cram into each day that we don't feel like we've actually left class! BUT today was a bit different... i started knitting! wohoo! it's long and tedious, but fun. and class was super good... Hugo talked about worrying and about what the Lord's been revealing to us recently. so cool. :)

Geoff has fimo and so he and me and Dee (woo, it all rhymes!) made earrings and rings for ourselves and then for others as they came by to make orders. I made some pretty funky ones.. and candy cane earrings! i'm deciding to not stretch my ears any bigger.

and then after dinner we went into Sundre and went carolling! it was awesome! we went to an old folk's home and the IGA and a sports bar and a coffee shop and a "Granny's Kitchen"... and to some people's homes. I loved it :) we were supposed to have worship tonight also, but people are getting SO tired and probably woulda lasted a couple hours, and i think we just all needed a night to chill. so we'll do worship (our last one this semester! *sniff!*) tomorrow after class. I think we're watching a dvd on the projector in the Activity Center now, so i'm gonna go. XO XO
see you next week!
Janal

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Hey! wow, today was awesome fun.
We had class and talked about the importance of small groups. It was very encouraging! then we played on the ice (which is covered in an inch of snow). And then we played football and i took a kidney shot. it was painful, but envigorating. THEN! (drumroll) we spent a long time getting dressed up and went into the town of Sundre to the KickBack Cafe which we rented out for super cheap and got coffee and jet tea and pop and sung karaoke! It was a blast. the only bummer was that we had to leave by 9:45 and we coulda kept singing past midnight. but THEN we came back to Evergreen and ate gingerbread cookies, sugar cookies, shortbread, chocolate dipped double chocolate cookies, candy, fudge, chips and salsa and pop. it was awesome. we have so much food left over still, which makes it even more awesome. and we did Secret Santas! AND I GOT YARN! WOHOO! seriously, over 1/2 the group knits and/or crochets and i am DETERMINED to learn BEFORE the first semester is done (er... that gives me about 7 days) and the yarn is a rosy pink... and Megan is giving me her extra pair of knitting needles! and she'll teach me tomorrow (she's reading this over my shoulder... there's literally NO privacy here--i love it! :) ) ahh! i'm picking up peoples anurisms! i mean MANNERISMS. it's hilarious. ooo, and i got a precious moments Christmas colouring book and crayons.. and the book came with sparkly stickers!!! i was so excited.
I'm reading though Zechariah right now, and beans, it's seriously SO cool. I recommend everyone to read it.
that was my inspirational thought for the day. no joke, i cannot be profound on my blog anymore. but i will! i promise! this will be once again transformed into Deep Thoughts By Janelle Kristine once I have a place of peace, quiet, and privacy again. But by that time i may shoot myself for lack of people. seriously, HOW am i supposed to sleep when I get home at Christmas with NO ONE else in my room? I have not slept anywhere by myself for ... ages. i love it. but i don't know what i'll do with myself when i get home. and i have 14 sisters here... with huge wardrobes! we all share clothes! it's brilliant! but i know i'll come home and be like, "where are all my freaking clothes? oh right, they all belong to Xena and Katie and Pan. right."

oh! tomorrow we're making GINGERBREAD HOUSES with our small groups. I am SO excited! I've been asking Jodie (my small group leader) since october if we could make gingerbread houses in December and tomorrow's december and we are! hurrah!

well. it's nearly 1:00 am. and it's Megan's turn on. see you in a week! loves to all.
PS. Paul: get better. get off crutches. hit that loser harder next time. i believe in you. will i make a bad hockey mom one day? hope not. love you.

Sunday, November 28, 2004

Hey!
ok, so girl's week is over. we bought our men (all 7 of them) flowers and chocolate and sent them to Camp Evergreen with our female leader when we had the leader switch. The guys loved it, so us girls loved it.

oh my goodness, my friend Geoff is writing his speaker report right now and he asked me and Megan and Xena what we would do if we had one week where we could be a guy. I figure that I'd pee on trees and write my name in the snow, grow facial hair, and walk around without my shirt on. anyway...

ok, so yesterday a couple of us went to the gym in Sundre and then to the IGA to buy ingredients to bake stuff for the Christmas party. and then the people at camp told us that there's a cougar about! So today me and Jeffrey went and followed its tracks. but we couldn't find it. bummer. oh! and the river is (partially) frozen and Niki was running across it and fell through. but only got wet up to her thigh. it was hilarious though. and then tonight me and Laura made gingerbread cookie dough to bake tomorrow for our Christmas party on Tuesday! hurrah! i hope it'll be awesome. we're doing Secret Santa. all i want from my secret santa is crochet or knitting needles and yarn. EVERYONE here knits. and i want to too. i got my Secret Santa a elastic band wooden gun from Banff. His name is Kevin and he looks like one of the Sedin twins from the Canucks. and when he was a kid his dad gave him and his brothers guns, but his mom made them eat EVERYTHING they killed (as an incentive to not shoot random creatures). but he's had squirrel pot pie and stuff... gross.

Ok, so our speaker, Hugo Reimer (yay! another Menno :)) arrived tonight and we invited him to play Clue with us ("us" being Katie, Xena, Geoff, Niki, and meeee). So we explained the rules and passed out the cards and started. and it was great! Except that we realized at the end that we were only playing with 17 of the 21 cards. bahh! it was so funny though because we all were CERTAIN that we KNEW who done it, with what, and where, but we were all so so wrong.

what else? hmm.. i'm coming home on Wednesday December 8th at 12:13 pm at the Abbotsford airport. if you wanna come, i'd LOVE to have you! wohoo! anyway, it's Katherine Elizabeth Butz's time on the internet. so i should go. and go to bed too. later tater tots!


Thursday, November 25, 2004

Insanely Spaztic kittens and stomach uldulations...

Happy American thanksgiving (we've 4 Staters on our site) and... a month to Christmas!

yes, ok, so there are 5 wild kittens here (here as in at Sylvan Lake. we leave to go back to Evergreen tomorrow). and the kittens are ADORABLE! oh my goodness! some of them are so hairy they are just these little POOFs! i love them! well anyway, they hide under this porch thing. BUT there's this small hole in the porch! so 2 weeks ago Pan was like, "Janal, go under the porch and catch the kitties!" so i was all like, "ok!" and so i went under there TWICE in a day, but both times couldn't even see them because it was so dark. so i saw them suntanning today and ran to get Panny and a container of milk. there was no milk, so i broke some creamers into a plastic bowl and put it right by the porch and then lay on my belly so i could watch for when they came out and then yoink the kitties up when they came out. and it worked! but the first kitten scratched me and got away. then i waited 5 more minutes and 2 more came out! and i snatched one up. and HOLY FRUIT BAT, i have NEVER heard a cat, let alone a wee little kitten, screech SO bloody loud! it was insane! and she was VICIOUS! i wore 5 band-aids all day after that. it was freaking hilarious. i hope you can't catch rabies from feral kittens. i still think they are adorable tho.

guess what we did tonight? we had a lady come in and teach us belly dancing! it was AWESOME! i realized that i don't really have the hips to "shake it", but it was so much fun at the same time. so now i can salsa dance, belly dance, and gangsta dance! wohoo! apparently I have a "dance face" that i always put on, even when we're just goofing around inside dancing. i swear it's not true.

so girl's week was REALLY good. i played poker (texas hold'em) last night for a while with fruit loops as chips. and yesterday all the girls sat down and made a list of 40 questions that we wanted to ask our guys. then we emailed those Q's to the boys at Evergreen and they did the same thing and emailed us Q's! and then we answered them today and our leaders switched camps to go and present the answers. it was really cool and informative!

i'm not sure what i'm doing this weekend... hopefully we'll head into Calgary. I wouldn't be opposed to going to Canmore or Banff, but we've been there 4 times already and we'll be staying there next weekend (gah! our last weekend!), so it'd be nice to have a change. i might just stay at Evergreen, but that might not be fun.

oh my goodness. i just realized that i haven't yet had ONE SINGLE DAY where I haven't gone out or had class or something else planned. other people have opted out of weekend things and stayed at the camps, but i haven't. i bet i'd seriously go insane. it'd be a good time to work on my songs... but at the same time, i don't think i'd like it. hmm, and there's no point in starting now either. especially considering that we only have 13 days left together, so i want to DO things with people the whole time. yep. that's what i'll do then.

Wow, i was reading in Proverbs 30 today and there were 2 verses that really stuck out:
"Two things I ask of you, O Lord; do not refuse me before I die: Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches, but give meonly my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you and say, "Who is the Lord?" Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonour the name of my God."
It's crazy because I've always SAID, "oh, i don't care about money, blah blah", but i think i really do have a selfish i-need-to-be-very-comfortable-when-i-grow-up mindset. i think i'm gonna challenge myself to pray these verses into my life. hmmm... i find it very hard to be insightful when i'm on a time schedule for the internet! haha! ask me questions when i get home, or email me, and i'll tell you more of what i'm learning. my hearts you.

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

alrighty! so we're back at Sylvan Lake for Girl's Week with Site 2. The Site 2 guys met up with our guys at Evergreen in Sundre for this week too. It's been fun... the girls are super nice. there's about 40 females in one place, which would be insane if a spat were to break out, but things have been extremely sane. so that rocks :)

I went snowboarding on the weekend! it was awesome. except my board's bindings are bologna! sooooo crappy. BUT Xena says that she has bindings that i can HAVE! she never ever uses them and so she's giving them to me, which is doubly awesome because she used to have the exact same board boots as i do and they were specially fitted for them. hurrah! her bindings are in Saskatoon though, so i won't get them until after Christmas. unless... hm... maybe i could pay her to have them shipped. we'll see, we'll see :)

So tomorrow is the official "we only have 2 weeks left together" point and it's sad. I don't really feel like i've learned THAT much since i've been here. I mean, it's be awesome and i've made tons of friends and had some amazing fun times and God times. but at the same time (wow, i've overused that word! let's see how many more times I can use the word time in this blog) i don't feel like there was one speaker that really impacted me exponentially, or changed my life, like lots of the people here have said is so in their time here. But maybe i have learned lots, but just haven't had the time or motivation to sit down and process it. that's probably the case. I was talking to kristine (one of my leaders) today about it during our PMG and she was just saying that for most of the students, the huge growth happens in Guatemala because we're FORCED to grow up and be independent from the time we get there pretty much. so i'm nervous and excited at the same time.

during quiet time today i did this thing that Danica and Kjer told me about that the people at H2O (or whatever it's called now) have been doing: taking a 20 minute time block and sitting and just listening to the Lord. it was cool. nothing revolutionary, but it was cool to see the thoughts that i think about most often and what naturally comes to mind when i spend time alone and such. and God had some really great things to say also, so it was time well spent. i think i'll try to do that every day from now on too. But maybe not during quiet time because it's one of the times during the day where people really aren't as quiet as you'd expect them to be! haha!

The speaker this week, Susanna Muntz, is doing an extra, optional session tonight in an hour's time regarding some misunderstood passages in the Bible regarding the women of the Bible times. I am not sure if i am gonna go. a bunch of people are watching "Romeo and Juliet" but i honestly HATE Leo DiCaprio and i don't want to spend tons of time in front of the TV. oooh, side note: Alias is done. it ended HORRIBLY! i guess they make season finales completely whacked out so that we can't WAIT and by the time the next season starts, we're pretty much pulling down the wall paper to see it. but yes, so uncertain if i'll go to class tonight or not.

we have to present the city of Antigua, Guatemala in a week's time ("we" being Katie, Pan and I) in Spanish class and we can't find anything on the internet! which is what i'm supposed to be doing right now. it's technically not even my internet time, but the girl who's signed up isn't even here. but i should go anyway and pretend to be studious. until next time!
Janelle
Good music: Jack Johnson (On and On), anything Christmasey! wohoo!
Number of times I used the word "time" (including this time!) in this blog: 24


Friday, November 19, 2004

howdy from the snowy (yep, SNOWY!) Sundre! It snowed last night! wohoo! really only like... MAYBE an inch. but hey! snow is snow is snow!

today is our service day here. I'm building a fence! in the snow. oh jolly good fun times. actually, i'm sure it will be a blast. i'm just currently making a mental list of all the many clothes I should put on.

Wow, ok, so we had probably the biggest breakthrough in worship last night! We wanted to focus on encouragement, so me and Joel just played a couple songs and then we all sat in a circle and we'd pick on one person, say all the cool stuff about them, and then pray for them. needless to say, after 2 hours of that, we weren't even quite halfway through the group. so we decided to finish it the next night (tonight). and then the group wanted to sing more songs, but Joel and I hadn't even really practised anything together this week because it was so busy, but they just started throwing songs out at us that they wanted to hear, and we just shrugged and started playing... and it went for over an hour like that! it was awesomely awesome.
and then we watched Alias.

Hmm... what else to say? We're going horseback riding after the service project today! yay! in the snow! wohoo! oh, but lots of people have been getting strangely sick. like where they feel totally fine and then all of the sudden their stomachs cramp up and they just... get sick. it's really odd because they have no other symptoms. and it's been going on for a few days. so hopefully/prayerfully it's nothing serious and they get better soon. well, i must be off!
PS. Thanks for my package, Nicole! you rock my socks.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

you guys have no idea how many hair dyings and piercings and salon-style stuff has been going on these past couple months! 10 of us 21 have gotten new piercings (um... and 5 of them were self-done by.. us. but they turned out good! haha! and we've all got these new fimo-made earrings that are just a bit bigger than regular gauge holes so we've got these minorly stretched holes.) i've dyed 3 people's hair... hairs... whatever! :) it's quite fun. i'm worried that the whole group will become addicted to the smell of hair dye because we always choose to do it in the small, confined areas of the camp where we all hang out. whacked out.
OH! i gave you guys the wrong postal code for Evergreen! :S it's T0M 1X0. but i'm sure it'll still get here if you use the one i gave you.
out small group is going to Calgary tomorrow to go rock climbing! hurrah! i LOVE climbing! it's gonna rock! and this weekend we get to go to Lake Louise to snowboard and then i'll hang out in Banff/Canmore. and then we're moving back to Sunnyside for girl's week. then we come back here.
we played mafia tonight and then i introduced Psychiatrist. it was simply hilarious :) hmm.. what else? there are horses here! they're all so fuzzy. makes me miss Billie. i think we get to go trail riding on Friday. wohoo! we also have a service day on Friday. i'm not sure what we'll have to do. it's supposed to snow on Thursday! that'd rock, but service outside the next morning would be CHILLAGE! i'm always thinking about my temperature... i'm such a wuss when it comes to being cold! Dad's been telling me that for years... lol :)
OH! our website pictures are up! or at least a good handful of them are. here's the link right to our site: http://www.outtatown.com/04site1/ anyway, it's super late. i should go to bed. see you all later!
Nicole: i can't wait for the package! you're my hero! :)
Shannon, JessL, Christine... thanks for commenting on these things! can't wait to see you all in Dec. ciao for now.

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Soooo... we went to Banff today! It was completely unproductive. We walked around... tried to get free fudge samples but they were out at the places that usually have them. boo for that. my friend, Pan, was going to dye her hair from DARK brown to white-blonde in Banff and I was all excited to live vicariously through her, but... it woulda taken almost 3 hours and they couldn't fit her into their schedule where it worked out with our schedule. So she'll do it next weekend. OH! we're not in Sylvan Lake anymore. we're at Camp Evergreen, in Sundre, AB. So if you want to write to me here (*wink wink*) I'll be located at:
Janelle Robinson
c/o Outtatown
Box 492
Sundre, AB
T0X 1X0

yes. so next weekend we've the option to go to Lake Louise and Canmore and Banff. i think i'll go and stay overnight. pray for snow! Cuz i'd like to snowboard at least one of the days :) we only have 3 more weeks here! But there's SO much more stuff that we want to do here! Next week we're back at Sunnyside for girl's week with the Site 2 girls. and then the next week we're back here. and then we're in Canmore for our ski days. wow, that's nuts. so soon! i miss you all so much tho, but things rock here. anyways, i wrote a song today on the way back from banff and then put chords to it. :) here goes!

Writer's Block
Is it lack of inspiration
Or half-hearted motivation?
The room is too cold
I'm sick of playing in this key
My lyrics are blank
Have I lost the creativity?
Or is it just me?

It couldn't be that I've nothing
To sing about
Hope it's just a temporary drought

My guitar is glaring
And I'm still staring
At this blank page
I've an overwhelming feeling
Of frustration, sends me reeling

It's not fair
That my artistic outlet
Takes sickdays and holidays

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

So I've been praying for a couple weeks that God would challenge me at school. The speakers have rocked, but so much of what they've said I've previously wrestled with or have heard before. and our group is SO QUIET when it comes to classroom studies, so we never have discussions, ever.

So i had an inspiration: Maybe God IS challenging me, just not in the ways I expected. There's a time when we can only take in so much intellectual facts and spiritual insights, and then it becomes time to LIVE what we've sponged up.

And that time is now. Gah, i can't believe how long it takes me to figure these things out sometimes. for the love...

But anyway, now that the Lord's said this to me, I can look at this week and see that He's TOTALLY doing just that--challenging me to lead worship by myself (which i'm doing tomorrow and am totally nervous), challenging me to pray for and with people, to improve my piano skills, to exercise my spiritual giftings, to go and do stuff with the people i don't usually hang with, and to really live interdependently in this community. He's challenging me to take His words and then bloody go and DO THEM.
[*sorry, Dad, but there's a time and place for a little stronger language :) ]

It's ridiculously obvious after examining what i just said that i've been satisfied with the fact that "growing in my faith" has been little more than gaining more biblical knowledge, scientific evidence of Jesus's lifre, and cute one-liners that deserve to be printed on bumper stickers. Boo!

So the huge Q for me has been: do I really KNOW God? Or do I just know the Bible stories and the answers to questions?

The first and greatest command is what? To love the Lord your God with all your HEART, and with all you SOUL and with all your MIND. How can i Love GOd with all my emotions? That's the easy one for me... I'm emotional, I believe God is emotional, so it's easy for me to joyfully, anguishly, passionately, and intensely live out my love for God. but how do I go about loving Him with my intellect and knowledge and wisdom? And then my soul: my personality, my character, the essence of my being? Does ALL that's within me praise the Lord? All aspects of who I am, whether logical or physical or emotional or rational or whatever?

There's alot that's been going on that's taught me the importance of really NEEDING others in community and to live for them. It's no longer about me! My friend, Megan, politely warned me this morning that my roomie in "Real University" as she put it will NOT put up with my alarm clock going off as much as mine does before i actually wake up and turn the snooze button right to "Off". Ok, sure, my alarm does go off every 4 minutes (which is more than any other i've owned),... so i'll work on that one :)
But seriously, it's no longer about me. It's biblical to be dependent on one another! Not post-modern, that's for sure, but it's Jesus. I gotta go to small group. love you all so much!
Isaiah 66:2
Good music: Pedro the Lion, "Beautiful" CD by Brian Doerksen.

Monday, November 08, 2004

"A voice of one calling in the desert,
'Prepare the way for the Lord,
make straight paths for him.
Every valley shall be filled in,

every mountain and hill made low.
The crooked roads shall become straight,
the rough ways smooth.
And all mankind will see God's
salvation.'"


There's this river of words of God's wonders and His glory and His hope inside me, yet I can't seem to ever know the words to express it. Recently whenever I've opened my mouth nothing comes out right. It's not that it has to be eloquent and perfect, but what I say doesn't even come close to capturing the passion and the torrentual flood of emotion that's inside. perhaps it's time i learned to speak with my actions... the attention i give someone who's sharing with me probably means so much more than if i have something wise to say after they're finished. and i'd way rather speak sloppily and unprofessionally, but with love than to be this profound speaker that uses creative sentence structure and all.

The idea of speaking has been on my mind alot today, mostly because the teacher we have this week (Melinda ) is making us share not only our life story, but Who Jesus is to us, why we chose Him, why we have hope, and what it means to live for Him in front of the whole group. In my head i'm all like, "Oh, not a problem, we've been trained to do this at camp and in youth group," but when it REALLY comes down to it, i make Jesus sound so cheesy. I just want to hand the group a box that's full of autenticity and passion and examples of Christ and what He does and how He's this undescribable God and Creator and Father and Friend and Teacher and etc. But i have to use words. I haven't even been able to write songs and poems recently either. This is the place I need to be at so that the Lord can teach me how to speak His words and truth continually, using words only if neccessary. wow, can you imagine how important that will be for me in Guatemala? being around millions who don't speak the same language as me? Lord have mercy on me...
"How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!"
Romans 10:15

"Therefore I glory in Christ Jesus in my service to God. I will not venture to speak of anything except what Christ has accomplished through me in leading the Gentiles to obey God by what I have said and done--by the power of signs and miracles, through the power of the Spirit."
Romans 15:17-19